Hi. It is quite some time that I didn't post anything. New job is tiring. Being a mom, a wife, menantu & anak pun memenatkan. I have to juggle between everything.

I ended my probation on Nov 2023. I dont think it supposed to be that tiring tp maybe sbb country India, so mcm gg sikit sbb workload banyak. Alhamdulillah dapat suami yang memahami & sentiasa support. Tak berkira jaga anak. Terima kasih ya Allah.

I kadang terlampau penat sbb nak kena wake up early to prepare bekal for my husb & me. Kena hantar nasuha pergi school. then smpai office, kerja and melekat je dpn pc cuz gurl 1 min you sngt berharga yaa. Balik je rushing ambil cua sbb kena ambil before 6.30. Tak masuk lg dkt rumah nak kena sambung keje & uruskan rumah pulak. Sometimes i just need a stop button for me to rest from everything. I punya tahap penat tu sampai i doa utk masuk hospital so that i can rest properly tp i kesian my husb will be struggle to handle everything. But I know he can do it 

Family i pulak jenis tak faham i punya masa. Dah penat2 tu bila weekend or ada masa, of course i nk spend time dgn my husb and nasuha. Or nak rehat je dkt rumah tp family i just dont get it. Kecik hati bila dorg ckp i abaikan keluarga, abaikan masa family. Pdhl kita punya struggle, dorang tak tahu pun. Of course the pay out = workload tp i need my time too. Dulu ye la gaji kecik, keje senang tp bnyk masa. Now ada money, tp workload and time pulak hm. Entahlah.

Talk about money. I was about to start my saving pun something coming up. I tried so hard to berjimat sikit2 but at the end, things happened. I want to naikkan my saving again. I could've save 1k monthly but due to pindah rumah, beli rumah etc, x nampak savingnya dkt mana.

I love what i am doing now and i wanted to learn more. But to stay for a long time, of course tak. I want to secure another stable job. Yang pasti glc. Ive always wanted to work in kwsp tp rezeki belum sampai lagi. Oh btw, doakan kami dapat rumah selangorku dkt kwasa ya!

Now 11.10pm and baru nk lipat baju and packing baju utk pergi melaka esok. Hope things goes well in shaa Allah.

To my husband, thank you for always being there, thank you for always be so supportive in everything i do. Thank you jaga anak masa i kerja. I mntk maaf kalau i tak dapat luangkan masa, masak sedap2 like what i used to do. Honestly, walaupun dah lama kerja , i masih struggle utk bahagikan masa. I nak tolong you semampu i. I nk ambil and luangkan  masa dgn you sehabis boleh. Cuma kadang i betul betul tak larat and i cried few times sebab i  tak dapat bagi yang terbaik.

Untuk anak ibu, ibu minta maaf kalau ibu kurang masa dengan awak. Ibu cuba sehabis baik siapkan kerja cepat supaya  ibu boleh luangkan masa dengan awak. Mungkin sebab tu awak tak boleh cakap ibu sebab ibu kurang main dengan awak. Ibu minta maaf ye sayang. Ibu masih struggle. Ibu nak tolong abah, kami nak awak hidup senang. Bagi ibu masa untuk belajar menjadi ibu yang terbaik, isteri yang baik  & dalam masa yang sama ada kerja yang baik. 

Ibu sayang Aisyaa Nasuha dunia akhirat

I sayang you Muhammad Amar Syakir sampai syurga