Hi there.

So lepas banyak sangat darah ketul ketul keluar, husband asked to call ira sbb dia pernah miscarriage kan. So dia kata iya mmg tu tanda2 gugur dah tu.

We went to clinic for another scan, and confirmed no more kantung to be seen. I dpt letter prgi hospital utk cuci sbb masih ada saki baki yg tinggal dalam rahim.

After solat jumaat, mmg terus prgi hospital. Dia scan TVS pastu ambil mulut itik tu, gauze & scissor, dia jolok cm tkde perasaan ek sakit nak mampus. I cried and scream huhu sebaik nurse tolong pujuk 😭

Dia bg injection kecut rahim. Lepas je inject, first 1 hour sakit sangat sangat. Sebiji mcm contraction cumanya baby tak keluar. Dia cucuk 4.30pm patutnya 6.30pm dia check dah tp doktor ada emergency operation so delay smpai 9.30pm. Then scan lg, masih tebal. Dia x bg balik sbb kalau balik, kena cuci dulu masuk operation room. So dia bg another injection and scan again next morning.

Next morning, alhamdulillah dia kata dh kurang 1cm. So dia kata another 3 weeks, check upt make sure negative. Or else, kena g hospital sbb luar rahim. Then dia x bg plan anak after 2 regular period. Kalau ada bau busuk, dh tetibe bnyk pun g hospital jugak.

It was a roller coaster journey. I kerja and very tired on Sat, malam tu spotting. Isnin raya, jumaat miscarriage, ahad birthday. Kadang tak tahu nak rasa mcm mana cuma i berdoa, i dpt rezeki yg lg better. Harini i nk cantikkan resume lg. Harap dapat la kerja baru yg lg better.

Pape pun, thank you husbaby sebab selalu ada thru thick or thin. Thank you sngt selalu support. I love you endlessly ❤️

Everything was good in the beginning but sabtu 30/3, tetibe ada spotting and now makin bnyk darah sampai kne guna pad. Mula2 scan x nmpk kantung walaupun dh 7 weeks. Dr ingt ngandung luar rahim tapi baru ni check balik, dh nmpk kantung. Alhamdulillah bukan luar rahim. Cumanya kandungan kecik baru 5 weeks. Dr x sure kandungan tu jadi ke tak. Dia suruh tnggu lg 2 weeks.

Tp darah i makin bnyk and ada ketul. I x tahu tu kantung atau apa. I tak tahu. I tk ada pengalaman.. 

Org semua senang ckp psl jgn susah hati, jgn risau. I faham erti redha and i sngt redha kalau bukan rezeki. Tapi saya risau. Saya serabut. Saya nk tahu apa jd dlm perut tu. Saya curious. Tk tahu nk explain dkt org mcm mana. Sbb xde yg faham. Nobody really cares. I just want to scan and to know. I tk mntk lebih pun. Kdg i rasa i g je la hospital so at least dr check. Ni i cannot do anything pun because at the end, dorg akan cakap you yg tak rileks, tk sabar.

Aku hanya mampu doa, kalau gugur tu benda yg terbaik, biar la dia keluar cara baik. Kalau ngandung tu benda yg terbaik, moga kandungan ni sihat, cukup sifat. Aku taknak berada dlm keadaan tertanya tanya sbb aku penat. Tolong la ya Allah bg aku jawapan