While your husb can have all by himself. Picking up his hobbies, go to gym, meet his friend lepak lepak and all that. While you? Just a useless maid who's becoming a mom. Wake up every 2 hrs for night feeding, waking up masak breakfast/lunch. Lipat kain, kutip segala jenis sampah yg merata. Working lg. Rushing hantar anak, siapkan anak pagi pagi. Kejut husb solat, kejut dia tidur dkt bilik.

At this point i rasa i mcm mother of 3. Not a wife & mom of 2 anymore. I miss those days where he offer to cook while i am working masa PH. I miss those days when i dont have to kejut bnyk kali for solat. He is a good husband. But sometimes i dont even know who is him. Kdg i crave for a husb who can solat early, mengaji, solat berjemaah. Now kemas rumah pun jauhh sngt unless org dtg. He will stick the same task. Buang sampah, basuh toilet, uruskan anak2. 

Maybe im too tired thats why i felt that way. Cm i ckp. Dia husband yg baik. He said he wanted to be better. Tp mana entah effortnya.

Even now pun kata nk g gym. Promise wont be long. 9.30pm go. Now 11 pun belum balik. While me? Watching tv sambil lipat kain while anak anak sleep. Hahaha entah la.